Rough Ride

Went to the barn last night and rode Fritz. It was tough, some days he behaves as though he has never been in training and this was one of those days. Steph, my instructor, keeps telling me to get after him when he's being "dumb" but it's really hard to do that when I am never sure if it's him being dumb or if it's me. It just wouldn't be right.

She and I talked about me and Fritz. She said she thinks that Fritz is too much horse for me (she is kinda right) and that cutting is really too hard to start out in. What she said made sense, but it is also hard to think about letting go of Fritz. I must have already started thinking along those lines because the day before this conversation I found High Brows Joy (JoJo). She is a 7-year old paint reining mare. She is solid, which means she wouldn't make mistakes even tho I would, so she would be good for me to learn on. I haven't decided to go see her, try her out, to see if JoJo and I work together. I look at Fritz, look in his eyes and I know he wants to be good, I also know that the one thing stopping him from being good is me. Makes it very hard. Ugh!